I had been married to Neil for a year when we were told he had chronic myeloid leukemia. Again, I cried out to God and this time it changed my life forever, as well as kept me from falling apart entirely.
We had married in August of 2000. In August of 2001 we sat listening to the doctor warning us that this chronic leukemia could go into the accelerated, and then blast phases at any time and when it did Neil wouldn’t live too long. This is when I went on one of my many walks seeking God for answers. By this time God had answered enough prayers for me that I knew He was real, and I knew He would answer me if I pushed in to Him.
My question for Him this time was “Is the healing that I saw and heard about on TV, on the Miracle Channel, real?”
When I was a teenager, I watched a show that portrayed healing as a sham, but I had recently watched a few healing programs and recognized that they were using scriptures from the Bible, and teaching as if we are still to believe those healing scriptures are for today. Scriptures like By Jesus stripes you are healed, and God sent His word and healed them and delivered them from their destructions, and Who forgives all your iniquities, who heals all your diseases. The one that made me wonder most was God’s words are life to those who find them and health to all their flesh. I would hear these verses, and I would see people doing things they didn’t seem to be able to do before, but I was skeptical so I kept asking my questions.
The doctors told us that Neil’s best chance for survival was a stem cell transplant. They only gave him a 50% chance of making it through, and maybe up to a 75% chance, because he hadn’t gotten really sick yet, and he wasn’t that old. Neil was set up for his stem cell transplant in Winnipeg for Aug of 2002. His sister Kathy was a perfect match, so she could be his stem cell donor. We started planning for the girls to be looked after while we were away.
There were a few significant times during that year that God did things that made me lean towards believing that healing was for Him and for now, but I was still unconvinced so I continued to push in to God. I prayed for Neil to be healed every day. Then one day, I was watching a Miracle Channel program where a little girl who was only able to walk using crutches, walked without them for the first time, and my legs tingled from my hips down. I wondered if I had pinched a nerve in my back. I didn’t want to miss God if He was telling me that healing was from Him, but I just needed more proof than that. I decided to call the number on the TV screen. But first I prayed “God please put someone on the other end of this phone that I will know is from you.”
A lady answered, and I asked “Do you believe in healing?”
“Yes,” she answered.
“Can you tell me why?” I asked.
“Yes. Three years ago, my daughter had a serious learning disability. The doctors were doing all they could, the teachers were doing all they could, and I was doing all I could, but the school would phone me every day and I would cry every day. But… you could only know what that is like if it happened to you,” she said.
As she spoke an excitement grew in me. That exact scenario had happened to me, so I knew God had set up that phone call.
The lady went on to tell me that she had taken her daughter to a youth pastor once a week for six months, and her daughter doesn’t have the disability any longer. She told me about a pastor named Leon Fontaine from Winnipeg, who had come to their church in Ontario, and taught about healing. She talked about Leon’s healing ministry, and his church in Winnipeg, Springs Church. I had watched his program a couple of time before, and I knew what I was going to be doing when I got to Winnipeg. I was going to Springs Church.
August came and we drove to Winnipeg. We got settled into our hospital room on the cancer ward called G6. In G6, they like a family member to stay in the room with the patient to watch them more closely than the nurses can. The following day the stem cell procedure began.
That evening I headed for a church service at Springs Church. After the service, I met a lady named Marilyn, she took me to meet Pastor Leon. He gave me a couple of sets of tapes on healing and told me that as I listened to them my faith for healing would grow.
I lay in my cot in our hospital room and listened to them over and over, and wrote many pages of notes. I woke up one morning with this great feeling on me, and I heard these words, “Neil is healed!” go through my head. I looked over at Neil. He didn’t look any different but I knew that that message was from God. I recognized that I couldn’t believe Neil had been instantly healed, but I could believe that I was going to take him home with me.
I had been diagnosed with fibromyalgia quite a few years earlier. Fibromyalgia is a stress related illness, and often creates symptoms of worry and depression. Believing that Neil was coming home with me changed everything. From that day forward I used those words, Neil is healed, to push out any negative thoughts that came into my head. Those words were more powerful than my doubts, the depression that pushed at me, and even more powerful than what the doctors said.
To be continued…
Proverbs 4:20-22 (NKJV) My son, give attention to my words;
Incline your ear to my sayings.
21 Do not let them depart from your eyes;
Keep them in the midst of your heart;
22 For they are life to those who find them,
And health to all their flesh.
Hebrews 11:6 (NKJV) But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.
Psalms 103:2 Bless the LORD, O my soul,
And forget not all His benefits:
3 Who forgives all your iniquities,
Who heals all your diseases,
Isaiah 53:5 (NKJV) But He was wounded for our transgressions,
He was bruised for our iniquities;
The chastisement for our peace was upon Him,
And by His stripes we are healed.
Psalm 107:20 (NKJV) He sent His word and healed them,
And delivered them from their destructions.