When I was young my Dad sat on the side of my bed and read me stories out of Sunday School papers and taught me about God. When he died when I was six, I was left with a lot of questions. Things didn’t add up in my little brain. Daddy had told me that God is love and that God loved me. I knew about Heaven, and I believed that my Daddy had gone there. But I couldn’t understand how if God was love, how could my life feel so bad. This started a continual quest in me for understanding. This understanding only came in bits and pieces for years and it was in my troubles that I reached for the truth. And the more I reached for Him the more He revealed Himself to me.
John 14:21 The person who has My commands and keeps them is the one who loves Me; and whoever loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I will love him and will show (reveal, manifest) Myself to him. [I will let Myself be clearly seen by him and make Myself real to him.]
The first time this happened for me was when I was about 15. I had come home from bible camp where I had accepted Jesus payment for the things I had done wrong, His death on the cross for me. I had stepped into my house and after assessing the situation there, I left the house and headed for the backyard. I so badly wanted my life to be different. Things weren’t good at home and I felt defeated, and didn’t want it that way anymore.
As I walked across my backyard a wonderful feeling came over me and a really strong thought went through my head. ‘You are special.’ I wondered where that thought had come from. Could it have been God? No one had told me you could hear from God. Actually someone, about that time, walked through our house laughed and slapped their knee, ridiculing someone who said they had heard from God and how crazy that was. I never told anyone about my experience, but I held it in my heart. There it helped me on many occasions, to believe there was more to this world than what I was living.
There were a few time where I had glimpses of God, like one Sunday when I sat in church reading the Bible and some verses had a pretty strong meaning to me. But it was when I went through some hard times when I was about thirty five that I reached for God again that He showed Himself. I had been going to church all of these year, but not reaching to get to know Him personally. So when these bad times hit, the verses that had stood out to me came back, verses that made me think God should be working in our lives.
( Mathew 7:7) [a]Keep on asking and it will be given you; [b] keep on seeking and you will find;[c]keep on knocking and [the door] will be opened to you.
(Isaiah 58:9) a Then you shall call, and the Lord will answer; you shall cry, and He will say, Here I am.
Those verses told me God could be actively working in my life and I needed that. So I prayed and finally was able to leave a problem with Him and He answered Me and revealed Himself to me again. He let Himself be seen by me, like Ephesians 14:21 says.
I had heard about God’s love since I was a child and there was so much that I didn’t understand but now I was experiencing Gods love. Ephesians 3:19 says we can experience God’s love in a manner that far surpasses mere knowledge without experience and that was what was happening to me. But it didn’t come until I reached for Him and trusted Him specifically with the issues of my life.
As I gave Him my problems and while trusting Him with them, I would stop worrying. Then He would answer. He fixed lots of problems often by showing me what to do in the situation or showing me what He was doing. The more I trusted Him the more He could do. I have so many stories of how He guided me and helped me, it became an adventure to live this way.
The bible says knowing Him is part of eternal life. I thought that was interesting. Eternal life starts here, it starts when you get saved (asking Him to forgive your sins and asking Him into your heart and into your life).
(John 17:3) And this is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent.
As I write more of these blogs I will tell more of my answers to prayer and guidance from God.
I want to know God more.