For some reason, and I think it is both nature and nurture, I grew up harboring and exuding a lot of fear. I didn’t like it and I tried everything to both keep from getting into situations where I would be afraid and on the other hand from letting myself feel afraid when I was in tough situations. But fear plagued me and was closer to my brain than my right ear.
As I write these blog enters, I will share stories that started out as fears that I was not able to bring under submission until I learned this life lesson. I learned to cast my fear off like a backpack full of cement and leave it with God and when I did He would fix it.
1 John 4:18New King James Version (NKJV)
18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.
The problems He hasn’t been able to help me with are the ones where I let the fear-thoughts make me pick up that back pack again and sling it over my back because I didn’t have the confidence that He would fix it or I wasn’t patient enough to wait for Him to answer.
I went into the hospital once for out-patient surgery. In other words it was nothing to get my shirt tied in a knot about. My concern was that it was 11:15 am and I had low blood sugar and I could feel it. (This is a condition I have battled since I was a small child.) In this situation I was scared of a few things. One, that I had taken a day off work, stayed in the city and if my blood sugar was low they might not be able to do the surgery. Two, that they would do the surgery and my blood sugar would drop and I would die on the table. Only little fears, right?
So I said this prayer. God if I’m going to die on the table don’t let me have the operation but I want to get it over with so please let me have the operation today and keep me alive through it. Thank You. Then I chose to believe that God would answer. I believed I would be having the operation and I would live through it. I left no room in my head for doubts.
A nurse came out and got me from the waiting room. Upon looking at my chart she said, “You have hypoglycemia?”
I said, “Yes and my sugar is on its way down.”
She poked my finger and said, “Yes it is. You should have been our first patient this morning.”
“I thought my appointment was 9:30.” I said.
“They must have bumped you.” The nurse said. “I will get you in as soon as possible. I will get you a wheelchair and a warm blanket. We don’t want you using up any more blood sugar not even to keep your body warm.”
I was all tucked in under a couple of warm blankets when the nurse came back. I told her that I couldn’t have cookies and juice when I came out of the operation.
“Oh right,” she said. “How about toast, peanut butter, and water?”
“Perfect,” I said. This lady seemed to know how to take care of me pretty good. I thought.
I heard the nurse talking to four different nurses explaining to them how I couldn’t tolerate sugar, none of them seemed to know the extent of it without her explanation. When she came back, I asked, “How do you know so much about this?”
“I was diagnosed with hypoglycemia fifteen years ago.” she said.
From that second on I smiled. My nurse was probably the only one in the hospital who had the same condition I had. I knew God had prearranged my nurse and I knew I was going to wake up from the operation. The nurse was amused at my smile. I told her that I might write about her in a book someday. She told me that her husband was a minister and he was writing a book. God had left me no room to wonder if this was a coincidence.
I could never have left that prayer with God if I hadn’t heard these scriptures, come to understand them, and learned to have faith in God. Faith comes by hearing and hearing the word of God. Romans 10:17
The promise I was thinking about at the moment was; "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble."Psalm:1(KJV)
I had put my mind into a state of completely trusting that God would help me. The truth is sometimes when I'm trying to do this for a longer time it is more of a fight to stay in this frame of mind, unless my faith is really built up with God's promises on the subject. In this case it was a short time and the answers to prayer I'd had before helped me to trust.
Mark 11:24 (NKJV)
24 Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.
Cast all of your cares on me because I care for you. 1 Peter 5:7 (NKJV)
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Hebrews 6:12 (NKJV)
12 that you do not become sluggish, but imitate those who through faith and patience inherit the promises.
2 Peter 1:4 (NKJV)
4 by which have been given to us exceedingly great and precious promises, that through these you may be partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust.
2 Corinthians 1:20 (NKJV) For all the promises of God in Him are Yes, and in Him Amen, to the glory of God through us.
I love that God has already said "yes" to His promises.