Give, and it shall be given to you. That is what the Bible was telling me, but my mind was seeing ‘giving and receiving’ through the filter I had grown up with- give and don’t expect anything from anyone else, especially if you hadn’t done anything to earn it. Besides that, I felt it was my responsibility to look after myself and my family. To make matters worse, being a nobleman’s great-granddaughter, the things I gravitated to were not the cheapest things in the store. I say I gravitated to them but not very often did I buy them. This thriftiness was passed down first from my mother who grew up at the tail end of the 30’s, and next from that very same great-grandmother who after marrying the gardener was kicked out her wealthy family. She raised my grandmother to keep her dignity by changing her dickey (a false shirt front) and her beads for dinner. So the royal dressing for dinner didn’t end with her, but the royal bucks did. True story, but sadly my past left me with a poverty mindset that would prove to be very hard to break.
I know we weren’t poor when we were growing up, but it felt like it and I had no intentions of living that way again. As a single mom, I had been sitting with a loan I couldn’t touch for a few years and everyday expenses left me struggling to make ends meet.
I had heard preachers talk about God wanting to take care of my needs, and after a prayer I started to write. I didn’t have the confidence to step into the writing, and I didn’t trust that God would take care of everything I wanted taken care of. The more I listened to teachings and scriptures about God’s financial system, the more I began to believe that God did want to take care of all of my needs and that God isn’t a cheap God. In Philippians, it says He wants to take care of us in His riches in glory. If a wealthy man meets a young mother with a starving baby in her arms, he isn’t just going to give the woman enough for a small carton of milk. He is going to give her enough to keep the baby alive for at least a few months. It is out of His riches in glory that God wants to give to us, not out of our immediate need or His reluctance.
God has more than enough. Gold is something we like to treasure and wear in the form of rings, necklaces, watches, etc. The streets are made of gold in heaven. In heaven there is no lack of any good thing. We are to pray that God’s will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
It was a process learning God’s way of handling finances. To start with, God gave me the desire to give and He gave me opportunities to give. And that felt good. What I’m going to write next may sound strange, but what things in the Bible weren’t upside down and strange to even the people then. What would you think if you saw a man walking on water? So this may sound strange but if your mind is open to God’s way of doing things, life can get pretty exciting.
I would read the scriptures “Give, and it will be given to you, pressed down shaken together and running over it will be poured into you bosom.” This was explained to me as if you have a basket of anything and you shake it, it will move or shift down and there will be more room in the basket. Then it is filled to overflowing. So if you give, you are to be given a lot.
And sowing and reaping, the Bible says as you sow so shall you reap. So if you give a little of anything you will get a little of that same something coming back to you. I had a hard time with this. I would give but I had been taught not to expect. God began to teach me that if you don’t expect, then nothing will happen. Worse yet if you expect bad things, bad things could happen instead. This is called worrying and I was good at that.
With God leading me, giving became a way of life. On a few occasions, I have gone to events where a prophet would be speaking. I will talk about this in other blogs. At these meetings someone would prophesy, which is giving you a message from God. This is something written about a lot in the Bible. In the New Testament, it is found In 1 Corinthians 12 and 14.
On at least three occasions, when being at a prophetic meeting I was told that I had been giving, giving, giving to God but I wasn’t expecting to reap, and I had to learn to reap because that’s why you sow.(Matthew 25:38-40: says when we are giving to the needy we are giving to Him.) The example was that a farmer doesn’t plant a crop and then go away for a year believing that no crop was going to come up. No, he plants the seeds and then expects the crop to grow. At one of the first prophetic meetings I went to, the man said that there was going to be a release of finances to me in a supernatural way.
I would come home from each of these meetings a little wiser and with a bit more faith, but still couldn’t expect to receive anything. I said, this mental block would be hard to break. A year later, I went to another conference and a prophet told me that I had had the year from hell and everything I thought I had gained, I had lost and that money was going, going, going. He was absolutely right. He described it perfectly. He said I was having a Job-like experience. In the book of Job in the Bible it says that Job said, “Everything I feared befalls me everything I dread comes upon me.” That made me realize that it was my fears and worries that were allowing the bad things to happen. I wasn’t trusting God.
So I went back into my life again with the knowledge that I needed to expect, to believe that God was taking care of all of my needs in His riches in Glory. Again, I knew I shouldn’t think in a poverty laden way but I couldn’t do it. My mind had been so steeped in worry for too many years.
Then my daughter and I went out to Red Deer, Alta. This may sound spooky but it wasn’t. Someone with the gift of discerning of spirits saw the spirit of fear on me and cast it off, as well as a couple of other things. I left the building that evening and it was like a blanket had been lifted off of my head. The air was fresher, the sky was brighter. Depression had been lifted off of me.
As I drove out of the parking lot and then out of the city, I recognized that the thoughts, the negative thoughts that always bantered me were no longer there. I was excited. My next thought was Okay that should mean I can believe for the money I need. I will now be able to reap from what I have sown.
And a month later I was given what I needed to pay off the loan and it wasn’t a small amount. I had believed that I would receive it and it happened, but again I had trouble receiving it from a person. When I called my benefactors the next day, the first thing they said was, “don’t ever think that that was from us. That money was from God. God told us to give that money away and we knew it was to go to you.” I had to swallow my pride because I realized that this was how God chose to run finances. Give and it shall be given to you. If it is to be (what you give is to be given back to you), and if no one ever received, God’s way would never be fulfilled.
After this not only did God take care of our needs, He taught me how to trust Him for my every need and even my desires. His plans for me are bigger than any plans I have for myself. He is our King and our Father if we believe and we are to partake in His divine nature. So we are the King's kids and need to learn how to live in the systems He has set up for us.
Psalm 34:4 (NKJV) I sought the Lord, and He heard me,
And delivered me from all my fears.
Luke 6:38 (NKJV) Give, and it will be given to you: good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over will be put into your bosom. For with the same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you.”
Matthew 6:9,10 (NKJV) In this manner, therefore, pray:
Our Father in heaven,
Hallowed be Your name.
10 Your kingdom come.
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven.
Malachi 3:10 (NKJV) Bring all the tithes into the storehouse,
That there may be food in My house,
And try Me now in this,”
Says the Lord of hosts,
“If I will not open for you the windows of heaven
And pour out for you such blessing
That there will not be room enough to receive it.
Matthew 25:38-40 (NKJV) 38 When did we see You a stranger and take You in, or naked and clothe You? 39 Or when did we see You sick, or in prison, and come to You?’ 40 And the King will answer and say to them, ‘Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of these My brethren, you did it to Me.’
Philippians 4:19 (NKJV) And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
Psalm 37:4 (NKJV) Delight yourself also in the Lord,
And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
2 Timothy 1:7 (NKJV) For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
Revelation 21:21(NKJV) The twelve gates were twelve pearls: each individual gate was of one pearl. And the street of the city was pure gold, like transparent glass.
1 Peter 5:6-7 (NKJV) Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, 7 casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.
Revelation 19:16 (NKJV)
16 And He has on His robe and on His thigh a name written:
KING OF KINGS AND
LORD OF LORDS.