As I sat in front of my computer doing my husband books, a small dove sat perched on the fence outside my window. I picked up my sketch book and began to draw her, I only assume she’s a she because of her curiosity and daintiness. She gave me many poses to draw and then as I watched her, she began to notice me. She turned her little neck from side to side looking in the window. Then she really twisted her neck to have a good look at me. I captured that pose as well. This went on for a good half hour and I enjoyed every minute of it.
This was not always a luxury I would have been able to have enjoyed. In the past people would ask me if I was busy and I would always wanted to say “yes”. And felt bad if I wasn’t. I had such a pattern of busyness going in my life that I would feel uncomfortable while I sat and watched anything on TV or if I sat in the sun reading a book.
Two years ago I was put out of the game, so to speak or rather set into a new scenic picture. It was what was happening to me that made me change my life.
I have had to teach myself that it is okay to enjoy the little things, the beautiful things, and the moments with nothing much at all in them. Simplicity, not a goal I ever thought I would have set for myself, but now it’s one I greatly want to achieve. I didn’t say strive for because anything can become something pushed and forced after and the peace would be lost.
Change is something I have never liked. I have been faced with many things in life and when I have the courage to change things, things improve. This new fight was and is with my thoughts, the closest thing to my being, something I didn’t have as much control over as I should have. But with persistence I have learned how and am continuing to learn how to set boundaries, and retrain my mind to a healthier way of living. I am becoming closer to the balanced life that I have needed for years.
I love my walks with my dog, Baxter, watching him swim after ducks in our water filled fields. I like looking at the wild flowers and the birds taking off from the pond, leaving a spray of water flying in both directions behind them. I enjoy listening to children sing, and reading a good book. I love spending time with my family and all the laughs they give me. I am enjoying writing and drawing. I’m so glad God has given me this chance to live my dream and enjoy my life.
Philippians 4:6-8 (NKJV)
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.